Tears of gratitude...

I’ve been recently in a meditation workshop for a weekend, and I want to point out this experience by an article, here on my little secret blog, which probably won’t be so secret anymore, soon, because it’s kind of hard to hide a light, isn’t it?

So, what this workshop was about and what I got from it, afterwards?

Well, it was about “reintegration of the being”, meaning how to make ourselves more present in our life, and therefore to live more, to feel more and to see more, my dear son. And, actually, what have you done there? Well, my dear reader, we’ve made some meditations, like Osho Meditations (you know, that dude with a long beard, slow talk and child eyes), I mean Dynamic, Nadabrahma, Hahaha Laughing Meditation, and then again Dynamic. And we did also some SF journeys, I mean shamanic journeys, so to say, to find some cures for our soul, ‘cause great need it is there. And so, beside all this, as in any Osho work, we daaanced and sang, my dear son. Something like this: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TWcEPCGtj6w

And what did you felt, my young boy, after so much dancing and moving?

Heh, my dear reader, wait and see.

First of all, this Dynamic Meditation from Osho,  kind of blew me out. This is a hard meditation, you know. I did it in the past also, so like a few hundred times, but still hard it was. I felt like I was dying, boy, when we had to jump like a rubber ball. But I felt this time something that I don’t remember feeling it till now, in Dynamic: in the breathing part, I felt that my whole life was depending on this! To say it in a poetic way, with your permission, I was breathing my life. Very cool this was!

And another great moment to remember 1000 lives from  now on, was when we did the Hahaha Laughing Meditation. Well, you good man with beautiful eyes it makes me wanna kiss them, I laughed there, my dear son, as I haven’t done it long ago in this lifetime. Laughter with tears until you feel you’re gonna crackJ And the part even more beautiful came after this, in the dance moment. Lying down on the ground, I’ve waited to see if I feel like getting up. And that divine music, it was so beautiful that not only got me up, but simply made me grateful and joyful because I can feel this. And I just couldn’t stop my tears...When my mind again came back in the picture, it had to admit that: „I cried in happines!” Yes...I was for a few moments in the „core of life”. Amen!

About these were the peak moments from this workshop, that was held near Bucharest, in a pyramid shaped (on the roof) build house.

There were also moments of clarity and little awareness moments, so to say, either in the shamanic journeys with the drums (Alex Anton was our guide), either during the activities outside the meditation space (when we were eating or in the interactions with other people). I’ve noticed, for instance, more clearly my tendency to run away from people and to withdraw in a shell in which I don’t feel almost nothing. Or the tendency to judge people around me, and to give so-called right verdicts about their behavior.

So, all in all, I remained with the memory of totality moments and with experiences and feelings that will shower at some point towards the others, because what you receive with an open heart cannot remain to rotten within you.

Thanks!